Debut on Councillors

Tsk.. today was definitely not a good day for me. First thing is that when i walked into the Councillor meeting room, teacher as always and SURYA always nag nag nag and keep on pin pointing at bad things about the council. This is getting frustrating everytime this happens and Surya is one of the personel who understands what WE go through. She really is.. i even reminded her that REMEMBER the pain now and when she want to talk to us she could be more understanding! But she didn't even care a bit loh! Although i don't really hate her for that but she just, i mean should implement a new scolding system to scold only the ones who deserves it?

After the naggings, Mr Koh came in and told us that we MUST do a reflection on today's assembly talk by him and must be one full page without any spacing or anything. If typed out in computer then font size 12. If didn't hand in by next tuesday, we are getting sacked. Freaking idiotic and childish. Who cares about the talk c'mon. Be realistic loh. Then after that he told us to write 1 full page which is like 500+ words and he himself only like presented around 200 words including the words he actually said. Then want us to like double the things he said. How the heck?? Totally sucked loh. And threatened that he will sack us if didn't hand in the requirements of his. Tsk..

And then today suddenly told that have mock test after school at 3pm. And i thought today was only one hour of normal remedial as normal structured remedial would have been and told dear that i will be out of school at 4pm. Then the test came and took 1 hour 45 minutes. Crap. Idiotic test la. It's just composition. Can't we do half and the other week do half? I'm like in a rush home to meet dear? But i know i will get scolded by teacher if i told her that but then the time when Mrs Heng say a relief teacher will be coming in to invigilate as she is going Sentosa totally blew my mind into half. Idiot...

Today was super sian-ed and then at class played a puzzle called arrows which Wildie and I invented. Actually is me then we started to make a big hoohaa out of it. And then everyone is interested in what we are doing. Then i draw a lot of arrows and the arrows will point to someone in the class according to sitting plan and i told the people that the arrow it point will be the person i like. And i'm the one who set the question. Then i set it as though it was really complicated but in the end it just points back me. But they didn't know and started guessing wildly. Stupid.. That was practically the only one thing which is kind of good for me. Then rushed home and bathed and came online to type blog, do homework and chat with dear a while.

She sounded distant.. i told her i was doing homework and then she keep asking if i'm done when i already told her i finished.. It's like she doesn't want me to complete my homework. Then when i ask she say she was just asking. It's like you tell her you like her and she say do you really like her. I don't like re-affirming that much although its good but it's bothersome sometimes. I wonder how our relationship is going to turn out. Then i told her i'm updating blog and she say don't disturb me. I guess we really are distanced after this long time of not coming online together although it's like 2 days. I can't blame her and i know. Because she had a bad time yesterday and i couldn't do anything. Even comforting her i'm like feeling useless because i don't really have some real impact if i just comfort her. Today is disgusting for me. I hate thursdays.

Dear, i love you. I hope we will be able to scrape through this crisis. Just when January just passed and it's the second month already.