In the sewers..

Haiiz. Yesterday talked to dear for a few minutes and off to sleep. Mentioned something that made me sad. Although i am suppose to be very delighted, i guess. This post is entirely for memorial purposes and dear. Hence, those nosey people can understand what is love in the low tides.

Well, firstly, i shall say these points in an objective view. When someone closed can be saved from.. example, loan shark, will you help? The obvious answer is no. Why? Money is a sensitive issue. BUT if you can save someone with just a word, will you? To me, i will. It's hard to explain the whole thing here.. and i don't want to say out our privacy yeah.. So.. okay i'm just going to explain here. Don't ask me what happen or why please. Because this post is originally for dear and she already knows why so i will not answer other's questions.

Alright dear, what's the last thing you want me to do? For me, is to stop supporting me when i'm trying to give you a surprise. Of course, you didn't know of the surprise and so you stop supporting me. But, suprises are meant not to be told until the last second. People don't blurt out surprises when they want to give one. I'm not saying here either. You also not online.. no point saying and then you can't see.

The 2nd thing is that, yes, about the SMS. I shall be frank. I indeed take into account of breaking if this thing didn't work out. But you know, i consult before i do it. And i reflect upon why did i ever think of that. When i say "nevermind", it's usually bad things. But since you insist on knowing, i shall tell you the thing. I don't know whether it's an inappropriate choice of words or just too straight-forward, but everything i said is true. One important factor is about trusting one another.

Dear, you don't trust me that i can use the computer? Knowing me, i won't do things that i can't or not allowed to. So why are you saying that it's impossible? Can't trust me to use the computer is one thing. The main point is that, is there a problem with me playing audition with you? It really baffles me. Of course, i imagined all types of stuff. But i stopped thinking when i remembered i should trust you yesterday night.

I think the best way now is to give each of us space to think first? Before calling. If you didn't see this, i will sms you dear. I guess that's about it. Haiiz.. low tides suck =.=