♥ Life as a Solitude ♥

Slept well

2009-12-23T11:31:00.002+08:00

Finally a day i slept well haha, as in not disturbed by the ticking clock.
Perhaps i was too tired =)
Woke up and thought of baby girl and sms-ed her.
Went to get breakfast. It was dough sticks.
Because last night it was in the fridge >.>
Therefore this morning like stone. Bite until my jaw tired. (i use microwave)
Luckily, on my last piece my sister asked me to toast it.
I shall let the external soften then eat.
Hope it turns out well~ now i'm thirsty ~.~

Continuation of Birthday

2009-12-20T14:03:00.003+08:00

Well, it's morning when this happens, i woke up to play with Devon.
We had an appointment to meet at 9.30 am. I was late by ten minutes~ and she logged in soon after~ Then she greeted me, and soon, the journey to riddle solving has begun.
Devon was going off, she asked me to find Sandy. I found her and waited for the password to the room. Then she whispered me the password : Matchmaker.
Went in, saw her, and played a few rounds of audition with her. 7 rounds in total.

These are the songs that we played in order :
1) Love you anyway - Boyzone
2) Time for Love - T-Ara
3) Spirit of yesterday - DJ Valium
4) Because I Love you - Groove Coverage
5) Share the world - Tohoshiniki
6) Heart Beat - Wang Li Hong
7) The End - Groove Coverage

While in the midst of playing the songs, pirates asked me to play with him.
I was playing with Sandy and ask her not to let pirates in. LOL (When actually he was part of the plan too) And after everything i realised that pirate had to pester his brother to let him use the computer and waited, and i still ask him to wait because after i played with Sandy, i went to lobby and went in to a opened Wedding License. Get free 2x EXP and money. Who don't want! They failed once, but passed the 2nd time. And i got the bouquet! (10 thousand money) So luckyyy!

Then played with pirates Justin Timberlake song (6min). I thought he wanted to play a long song so that he can play longer. Hahah, but i don't think that's the reason anyway~ After playing he told me a blog for me to go. I thought he was thoughtful to make a blog to celebrate my birthday but he denied that he was the one who made it. So immediately i know that he is part of the plan already. Hahaha. Went to the blog and solved riddle after riddle. Finally got to the end. The plan was for me to redeem my prize at the door step. But.. does it mean that they are really at my block?! (Yes they really are) I was quite shock because this is getting a little creepy haha. But yea, there was a young child holding a plastic bag when i went out and he said Happy Birthday. I said Thank you to him. Twice, before he walks away. But when i was walking out of my apartment, i heard a female laughing voice. I thought it should be Devon. I saw her at the staircase. But i think i shocked her as well, she frantically shout and run to the next level.

She waved her hand at me, asking me to stop chasing. And so i did, but i still wondered what happened to her. I called Devon and she was laughing non-stop. I told her about the people outside and she said that they're gone so it's okay. I got over it after she said that. She ask me to open the present and see if i like it. It was a metal box of smiley magnets and a black plain CK shirt in another red paper bag with a ribbon. It was plain but simple. =) She chose black because she said i had too much white shirt haha. Anyway, i don't mind wearing~

My mum was looking suspiciously at me when she saw the suspicious package i was holding and then i wore a suspicious looking shirt out of nowhere because it's a new shirt which i got it from nowhere. Haha, i wore it and said it's from a friend. I think i will wear it for the rest of the day because it was a gift from Devon <3 Ah well, it's comfortable because it's kind of stretchable, as in the fabric. It kind of suit me too as well so it's fine haha :D

After that Devon asked me to call pirate. I called him using house phone while on the phone with Devon and she was shocked that i could call without putting my handphone down because i was speaking to her on my handphone and she thought i have to put down. But, ah well, i put down because i don't want her to feel weird haha. I think at that time she was conferencing with pirates that's why =x Pirate ask me to go down to the void deck and look "Up and around" the letterbox to search for something. I thought he was also downstairs for a second. This thought went through my mind : Hey.. because of my birthday pirates get to meet devon while i have to met her by coincidence for the first time! T_T Kind of feeling jealous actually.

Then as i went down i saw 2 guys sitting at the bench opposite of the letterbox. I thought they are also part of the plan LOL but actually they aren't. I search and i can feel that they look at me as if i'm a lunatic searching for something. The first thing i found on the letterbox was a big piece of card with a reflective paper on it, like a mirror. But i look again and i saw the card. I got it and looked around to see if Devon was there to spy on me. But to no avail. Kind of sad because she came all the way from the East to give me the gift and yet doesn't want to see me. I feel like it's a waste to let a chance to meet slip by.

I called her and ask where is she, she told me she is going to eat lunch with Sandy (the girl who screamed at the staircase) but doesn't tell me where she is going. Then she passed the handphone to Sandy and i spoke to her. She was telling me clues about where they are.

The clues she gave :
Somewhere near your house.
Can do other stuff besides eating.

I heard the little boy who gave me the present talking in the background. He was saying about drinks. And i heard Sandy ask whether he wants his water hot or cold. Coke or Green Tea. At first i thought it was fast-food restaurant but after thinking, fast food restaurant doesn't serve hot drinks. So i realised that it's the Japanese restaurant at Plaza, Ichiban. Then Devon got to the phone and i asked her if she was at Plaza. She said no, they aren't. (But actually they are) Then i say if she tell me where she is then i won't go and meet them. But when i said Plaza, she denied it frantically. I knew it's there =) So she told me Bukit Panjang Plaza. I replied her : Isn't that plaza!? She says there is another place called The Plaza and they are not there. Claiming she didn't know which Plaza i'm talking about. I called her Liar because she lied to me!

It was clearly a lie at that moment. After a few moments, she messaged me saying that she was in a dilemma of whether to meet me or not~ But i told her i'm going and she agreed. Yay! Was good because at least i grab hold of this opportunity to meet her! I wind-walked to Ichiban like i was going to kill someone and found out that she's not there. She messaged me saying they finished lunch and is going to Cafe Cartel for a drink. I turned back and started wind-walking to Cafe Cartel. Then they shout at me when i was going past Four Leaves Bakery. Then i saw Sandy, Devon and Sandy's son, Josq standing at the side. I met up and starts to walk to Cafe Cartel, but we didn't go in. I didn't want them to actually. Because it's so expensive! Then she decided on Mos Burger's Milk tea.

Walked to Mos Burger and sat down at a corner seat with John. Chatted with him while Sandy and Devon was getting a peach tea, milk tea (I don't know wad tea), and 1 small fries for Josq. Devon actually ask Josq to call her stuff that she likes to hear! Brainwash children! Lol!! Then we chatted for a bit. (Her hair highlight was nice =x) She looks pretty anxious and nervous when she was talking, speaks very fast but i got used to the way my Maths teacher teaches (Semi auto machine gun) I guess those that are good at Maths all speak that fast =x

After chatting for around 45 minutes i went home because Sandy got to get her things from the Singapore Post Office. And she got a wedding dinner to attend in the evening. So i shall not delay them =) Devon's gotta be her chauffeur! Yeah, so i went home. Even though the sun was big, i could feel small droplets of water hitting down on me. It's drizzling. Got home just in the nick of time before the rain starts. But it ended as soon as it starts. Right now it's sunny again, but i could see ominous rain clouds in the distance, wind blowing into the house. Will there be a rain border like the one i saw when i was a primary schooler? Where it's only a step different to be in the rain or out of the rain? I wish i could see it again. The miraculous phenomenon.

Messaged some love to Devon, and got some back =x
The best day of my life,
Sweet 16 <3

Thanks for the hard work organising, baby =)
Thanks for the cooperation despite you should be sleeping at home, Sandy
Thanks for being brave to deliver the present to me, John
Thanks for being part of the plan, Pirates
Thanks for all the birthday wishes from everyone.

I will never forget this day. 20/12/2009
The best birthday of Tan Jia Yi .

Happy Birthday... to me =D

2009-12-20T09:32:00.002+08:00

Today is my birthday =)
Yesterday was eve. I wasn't camping and waiting for birthday wishes.
Just as i was about to sleep then the wishes came in.
Didn't realise i was going to sleep at 12 haha.

Ranking for birthday wishes' timing (according to my time)
1) Devon at 11.56 pm
2) Qi Jie at 12.01 am
3) Yong Xin at 12.02 am
4) Yan Yu at 12.04 am
5) Jude at 12.05 am (actually is Devon, making up for her early wish)
6) Vivian at 2.08 am

Thank you people for remembering and making the effort to wait till 12 am
to send me the wishes. It was my highest number of wishes in my life =)
16 will be a good year! Looking at such a great start! :D

FAM outing 18/12

2009-12-18T21:17:00.002+08:00

Today is the FAM outing for DeUnknowns. The actual motive is to get together and also celebrate the birthday of 3 fine kiddos, december babies.
Well.. Wei Ren had got himself grounded 2 days before the outing and it's still reinforced till this day therefore unable to attend. (1 baby down)
It's kind of sad because the FAM master didn't show up for the outing.

p1 and I decided to meet at Jurong East Interchange and go together to Orchard MRT. But i was late by 8min because i was eating lunch at home. Then i rushed and when i got to the interchange, the train that we are going to board is already there. I quickly typed a message to p1 so that she can board the train and not waste time waiting for another one. Then i got on and she got on, but different exit. Lol.. we didn't meet at the interchange.

On the train, i keep messaging her to ask if she was on the train. Luckily the message arrived on time before the train goes and she boarded the train. Then i ask her to step out of the exit for a moment at the next station so that i can run to her. But then i realise i can't see that far and i stepped out, looked around (p1 was out too, she saw me looking at her. But actually i was just looking left and right, can't see a thing!) Haha, got a =.= face from her. Then i squeezed to the cabin she was in and found her looking blankly outside the door window. Really blankly that i didn't realise at first. Then when she look at me, i gave her a big smile =) (don't know who saw who first)

Then we chatted and smiled as we (p1 and p2) went to the entrance of 7-Eleven in Orchard MRT to meet up Keith and Jing Yi. They arrived first at 1.35pm when the meeting time was 1.45pm. Then p1 was complaining about hunger. I asked her why she didn't eat lunch before coming. Then she say she gotta catch the shuttle bus from her home to the MRT station. (Cheapskate!!) I said that to her. Hahaha! Then we collected Jing Yi and Keith's student pass and waited for Dynamite as he was late. He missed his bus and then 10min late. =P

After that Jing Yi and Keith went to buy lunch. p1, dynamite and I walk to movie theatre to get tickets. Oh that short journey was the most loneliest T.T Because I didn't want to cut their conversation haha.. Then bought tickets and there's still time. So p1 went to get McChicken for lunch. I think she's really going to die from hunger at the time ^^" Then right after she bought the burger, Jing Yi call me and ask where we are. I told her "Subway" then we met there around a minute later. I was telling p1 : Why today everyone call me? lolol! Maybe p1 didn't pick up call that's why haha..

Watched Planet 51. The storyline is good and quite interesting. I don't recall laughing at the movie but there's a lot of kids who laughed behind us. (we were at 2nd row. But all the rows are ground level) But p1 told me i laughed twice. Unbelievable, i didn't even realise that HAHA! She was sitting beside me ^^ Jing Yi offered 1 Subway cookie and 1 cup of lemon tea to p1 and I. But there's only one straw =x At that time i feel a little shy xD But in the end i only saw her sipping one mouth. But i wasn't thirsty so i didn't take a sip. Then we left the lemon tea there. We shared a chocolate chip cookie. Split into half and eat, it was nice and sweet (the act of sharing and cookie). Haha, movie was overall.. enjoyable.

Then we were in a dilemma on where to go after the movie. As we walk along Scotts Road, we saw a big group of people clustered together at one place. Then we found out that it's an advertisement. I saw Zhuang Mi Xue sitting in the Coca Cola Container that they are suppose to film inside, looking out. Haha! Hope she saw me though. After that i told the people that we should immediately go to our dinner destination and stone in the restaurant. Swensen's, HERE WE COME!

Getting to ION Orchard from Shaw House was no easy feat. We had to walk through the underpass to the MRT station then up again to ION's underground exit. Long journey. When we just entered ION, i could hear Jing Yi saying: Bullet very lonely hor. Haha, indeed. But nevermind. Don't want to cut into the space between p1 and Dynamite. Anti-social as always ^^
But that doesn't mean i didn't talk to Dynamite at all. We had a hard time going to Swensen's despite the knowledgeable p1 leading. But however in the end we got to our destination. Swensen's is very "ulu" or rural because its at the end of a tunnel in the MRT entrance. Da Jie had a hard time finding it.

Then we got to our seats and waited for the rest of the people to come. Then we went for buffet, I got a lot of seedless cherries, whipped cream, Kiwi ice cream, Rocky Road ice cream and Cheesecake Cookie ice cream. I ate the Kiwi ice cream first, very sweet! But not very nice. Then i ate 1 spoonful of Cheesecake Cookie ice cream. Not bad~ Oh, Keith got it too ^^ At his second round, he likes it too! Then i ate Rocky Road last. Because it is my favourite. But to my surprise, after all the sweet stuff i had, the Rocky Road ice cream becomes very bitter to the contrast of the sweetness of Kiwi and Cheesecake Cookie ice cream. Super bitter for the first mouthful >.<
The service was quite good. But also a little like being 'watched over' by the waiter and waitress.
They got their own 'watch tower' too! Somewhere beside the table behind us. I saw it and told p1. Then she gave an evil grin at how evil they are. Haha!

Then ate until really really full. Oh and the most unforgettable was Jing Yi's mouldy looking ice cream. What green is that! Er.. like light and mossy green? Lol. After that comes the main dish! Chicken something. Forgotten name but it's basically chicken cutlet but more high class. Quite appetising too. Because p1, Yanyu and I sharing costs so we ordered something that can be split to 3 easily. We shared the main dish. It was DELICIOUS. I can see that Keith/ Jing Yi realised that and when i was back from the toilet, there was another plate on the table. And a piece of mushroom cheese pizza on my side of the table. Guess it's for me. Haha, it was generous of Keith to share the pizza and i appreciated it. Even though it was full of garlic smell ;P

After the main dish Keith, Jing Yi, p1 and Yanyu went to get more desserts. I was almost bloated already and they are still continuing with it! I thought i was safe.. but it turns out that they made me a slice of birthday cake with colourful rice and coconut powder on top of an Oreo coated cheesecake with 2 lumps of whipped cream at the sides, nuts at the bottom of the slice of cake, 2 seedless cherries on the 2 lumps of whipped cream together with 2 marshmellows. And lastly, with a Pocky stick that's underwent the chocolate fondue standing on the cake. Acting as a candle. Haha, it was fun. I made a wish xD But not a selfish one though. But couldn't blow out the candle because there was no flame on it. Left the last mouthful but i'm bloated. They say don't eat anymore that's why i didn't eat ^^" But i really want to thank their hard work. It's really nice. I'll show the picture here as soon as i get it from p1 or Jing Yi.

After that went home via MRT while Yanyu and Da Jie took car. But i reached home before them because there was a traffic jam. And wanted to accompany p1. We came together, should go back together also right! =) It was a nice but pitiful scene to see p1 so tired from all the enthusiasm and bloated look on her face. So sickly face ^^" Oops, but it left a deep impression :D

Hm, switched to LRT back home when i'm at Chua Chu Kang. On the way back saw 4 lightnings from Chua Chu Kang to Home. At Teck Whye i saw someone cutting metal at night from the inside of the new ITE there. The sparks dropping down to the ground as i gazed at it. It was like christmas lights falling down in front of all those glass panels and in the background was a piece of darkness. I was breathtaking, but i was the only one looking at it. Because only i was facing to the back of the LRT (the front was where the door opens).

Reached home safely. Hope p1 too. Today was enjoyable. I AM VERY FULL :X
Also, a pity that Milkfed couldn't join us due to work commitments.
Haha.. okay i guess that's all for today! Fingers are tired from all the typing, legs are tired from all the walking. ^^ Getting sleepy too haha.. full now. But not very full. It's a satisfying feeling. I hope that everyone enjoyed the outing too. Best wishes.

Glued

2009-12-15T20:24:00.002+08:00

Glued to a new anime called Kaze no Stigma. Super nice show.
Recommends alot***
IF you have the free time that is hahaha.

Anyway, today had a little chat with devon.
Gah, rain and stop and now it's hot. x.x
BLEAH! Fam outing on friday! so excited!

Queer day

2009-12-14T15:26:00.002+08:00

Today when i woke up, i received a short message greeting of good morning.
Was quite shocked because i was half asleep, kind of in the lazing mood.
I found back 2 nice songs which i once loved. Hot weather despite the lack
of sunlight. Had a chat with devon on MSN~ went to watch .Hack//SIGN anime
at youtube, 8 episodes. Much more to go. Qi Jie also had a chat with me soon after.
Went to FAM forum to post some things. Salinah, can you tell me your phone
number? My email is musixboii@hotmail.com. Gotta' talk to you =)

Yesterday night got ninja-ed by alot of people haha, but my scores are the most
consistent x.x forever in 3rd/ 4th place. Gah, windows 7 really is bad.
Got turned into a pig because couldn't get mission. Haha, so lame but fun.

;Tired,

Sorry guys!

2009-12-13T22:25:00.002+08:00

This is an official apology to Salinah (100% sorry!), Pirates (60% sorry), Wandering ghost (5% sorry) erm, may i know who are you?

Anyway, recently i got in touch with you also right salinah?
I sms-ed to your number already. Hope you got it >.<
Sorry for mia-ing so long because this blog had once became my grave of fondness =p
But now everything is clearing up and life moves on~

So, i think i will try and be dedicated to this blog more often :D
Thats all!
MISS YOU SALINAH ><

Post #157

2009-07-30T20:56:00.003+08:00

Dang it guys.. i haven't been posting soon and, it's due to lack of responsibility i admit ._.

Well, i shall do it today since there's still time >< Recent class tests have ended and it was quite smooth-sailing except english with a tough comprehension.. The rest was quite standard, normal feeling.

I REALISED something today, the more i try to heal this emptiness of lone, even though it felt good healing it but, once you just feel that slight lone again, the emptiness LIAN BEN DAI LI (comes back with interest) pain altogether. Well, i know no one visits thats why i want to let out my frustrations here.

Even if anyone bothered to view it i don't mind anyway.. the feeling's back, the feeling before i got before trying to heal it. It's doesn't really matter, just, the new pain is the thing i need to endure o.o Tsk, wish my friends were here to share my grievances to haha... >< Miss you guys alot. Now i'm feeling weird ~_~ That all the while i seem to be friendless and doesnt seem wanting to make new friends.

Maybe i've got too many things to handle such as school @_@ tiring.. and friday is prelim EL oral exams. Man.. Next monday's got Geography test. I'd better rush now. i hope there's still time... Go jiayi... -prays hard- ><

Is it just me or..?

2009-07-16T20:56:00.004+08:00

Recently, i have been having unstable mood =.= Always start the day with a good start. But ends in an irritating way. I don't understand why as well.

Yesterday Pek Meng made me laugh like mad the whole day. When i got back home, like everything is dead and still. Totally no one talk to me when i'm on msn somemore.

i sometimes wonder if MSN is actually a communicating programme. Just wanna say.. recent life hasn't been good.

And JUST today i got a message from Susan, then has to end it like this. With me annoyed =.= I think i'm just having tantrums.

To add on, i got $50 from my dad for helping him appeal success on the "saman" he got from parking. So happy la. But still ended in an annoying way.

Since it's this case then i shall start switching to school mode then.. I don't even know if someone is reading this post since it's been dead for like.. forever?

Just a milestone for me. Jiayi, control yourself..

YeeeeeO

2009-05-22T20:35:00.002+08:00

Hahas back from the frenzied Mid-year exams. Actually ended quite a few days ago but today is the confirmation of results. These are the rest of my results as not stated on the previous post and i know some of you are desperate about my results. So.. here they are :

English (Overall) : C5
Chinese (Overall) : B3
Comb. Science (Overall) : B3
Comb. Humanities (Overall) : B4
E Maths (Overall) : C6
Accounts (Overall) : A2
Visual Art (Overall) : A2

A little sad for my life because i only have 7 subjects muahahaha, I know you guys have 8 to 10 and is very clever but don't want to admit -.- Haiish~ Anyways, here's my L1R2B2 and L1R5 results with workings~

L1R2B2 = C5 (English) + B3 (Chinese) + B3 (Science) + A2 (Accounts) + A2 (Art)
Which is 5+3+3+2+2... giving 15 for Polytechnic admission courses, and

L1R5 = C5 + B3 + B3 + A2 + A2 + B4
Which gives you... 19 !!! HAIIZ 19 for Junior College! I'm doooomed!

So i guess that's all i had. And i don't understand why i have been rather on a mood swing. Taking example from school, i suddenly flew into a rage and start shouting at people. Well, i guess is the person who provoked me first of accusing me throwing him paper balls. And i don't like people to accuse me. Actually i wasn't angry at first. But he further insist that i am the one who do it. Too bad~ You disturb me first, i shall not hold back~ That's the end of today. Jie using computer outside so i use this time to blog in the lousy computer! See i so good Pirates! =x=x

Mid Year Exams

2009-05-13T16:12:00.002+08:00

Alright, since so long didn't post anything here, i shall do the honour of reviewing the mid year exams now... Er.. My exams started on 4 May 09.

Day 1: English Subject: EL Paper 1 & 2
Comments : To me, Paper 1 was okay because i used quite a bit of idioms and those profound stuff haha xD So i think it would be okay. Paper 2 was super easy. I have no idea why but it's just easy. All the answers are straight-forward. I wondered how people would do the questions so slow! Lol~

Day 2: Chinese Subject : CL Paper 1 & 2 & Listening compre
Comments : Well, Paper 1 was quite challenging. No idea why also. But i am quite confident about my essays because i just love reading them over and over haha. Ah well, paper 2 is quite a killer. The comprehension strangled me. >.<

Day 3: Maths Paper 1 & Social Studies
Comments : Maths paper is quite okay for me. Can get a B4 above i guess haha. Ah well, i know i'm not as clever as some of you guys reading loh~ But please i also want to improve =.= Social Studies totally PWNed me! Super disgusting lah the questions! Even though i am clever enough to do the essay questions first, i didn't have enough time to finish the last question i'm left with (usefulness question). Stupid la! No time to finish!

Day 4: Science (Chem) Paper 3
Comments : Breeze. I think is because Social Studies too hard that's why this paper is easy. Totally no kick man!

Day 5: Science (Phys) Paper 2
Comments : Quite okay. Luckily for me, everything i memorised really did came out for the actual paper and is grateful to myself for actually giving my best to memorise all the formulas! But now all chucked in Recycle bin. Exams almost over!

Day 6: Maths Paper 2 & Science (Chem/Phys) Paper 1
Comments : Maths has got some kick. Even though the setter is not the notorious crazy no life maths teacher Mr Ong, we all blacklisted him as well because the questions he asked are all sadistic! Science paper was okok ^^

Still have 2 more days to go until Mid-Year is over! WOOHOOO It's gonna be a month's break! Tomorrow's Art and Principle of accounts. I shall review it tomorrow if i have the time to! Or maybe next time :D Cya guys Wish me luck!

As for those also having mid-year exams or just started, +U+U! Chiong ah!

Graduation from CCA

2009-04-24T09:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the last meeting of my CCA. Was briefed for a very long time. Meanwhile, i had councillor briefing at the spark room so, i went to the councillor briefing. After the whole runthrough, i went back to the hall to get my bag. But still, the CCA meeting haven't been dismissed. Totally sian-ed because i can't possibly take my bag and just walk away in front of the CCA teacher so i stayed a while more with the CCA. And to my pleasant surprise, we had an internal graduation ceremony. Or a mini-ceremony you call that. Because the stage is ours, we used it and kind of thanked the members all those stuff. Then Bo Liang was playing with the Rostrum. Saying he want to thank his mother and father. LOL very funny but reached home rather late. That's about it for these few days. Anyone want to find me can SMS me. Because i will not play audition for a while due to some reason. Unless some people invite me :P Yeah, that's all folks take care!

FAM Dinner

2009-04-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

Today is the FAM dinner which is held at Junction 8. There's total of 14 people going to the dinner. But after long wait it became 12 people. First we went to Yew Tee MRT Station to wait for Keith but he didn't come into the train then only realised it when the train is just moving from the station. He was like waving at us and us waving at him. Super funny. Then waited for him at Kranji Station. We went in and saw him then went together to junction 8.

Once reached there, we rushed to the food court to find seats for 14 people in a single table. Which is not easy. We finally chop a 10 sit table. After minutes of waiting for people to finish their dinner. Pirate came to my house before he go with us to the venue. Quite surprising because he actually lived only 2 stations from the venue and yet come all the way to Bukit Panjang and then go back to Bishan. Very waste time transporting but he gave some lame excuses of coming with his friend and then make a turn to my house. Pirates ah~ no need so waste time lol.

After that waited. Wei Ren, Jie, Keith, Yanyu and me were waiting for the rest to come. The next to come is Jingyi and Audrey. Quite sad also because i actually didn't talk with Audrey! Argh =.= But then W.R. encouraged me but still i didn't want to talk. Maybe want to leave a good first impression? Audrey totally don't look like her MSN display picture~ Yeah, then this 0jb0 person who is an audition friend of jie's and qi jie's came. He looks matured at first look but realises that he is a playful and boastful person. Likes to make fun of people and pour cold water on people lol.

Then Qi Jie came. She sat down and was like keep on smiling at W.R. at me. Lol and i know why she do that. Because we played 8k with her so many rounds. (actually is random mode but so "tyco" get 8k almost every time.) So maybe she .. remember the time when we played random mode. Then the 0jb0 was playing the sneezing game on Jie's iPhone. We got sick and tired of waiting anymore therefore we went to order our omelette rice. I got Unagi Tomato, Jie got Salmon Curry, Yanyu & Qi jie got Chicken Chop Tomato. 0jb0 ordered Chicken Cutlet rice.

Then Andy came. (dynamite) With a beige jacket. Looks cool, but not cool enough because he wasn't serious at all LOL Keep talking to 0jb0 like they are long lost friends even though it's their first meeting. Then Andy saw us eating and then sat down to think what to eat. We "Recommend" him to eat the omelette rice. And he got Chicken Cutlet rice, same as 0jb0. Then came -AIR_ZT (Tai Hong) <- HIS NAME. His HP no. is very scary. Don't tell you guys why. He mom bought the Number for $600 so you can imagine how easy the number is. He also queued at the omelette rice stall to get Chicken Chop rice.

Then we waited for Milkfed as we ate our food. We hogged the table like no one's business. Seriously, i even brought 2 chairs from the next table to our table as requested by Jie and i know that it is not illegal to do that. W.R. was almost reprimanding me of bringing the chair from the next table to ours. He keep saying, "Eh can bring chair meh?" And i gave him the "Duh" look. Although he didn't seem to even care and kept on asking that question over and over again. Not to mentioned that when Jie showed him the top she wanted to wear and he remarked that it was small. In the end look ok what LOL

Then after we finished our food and just as the cleaner swept our table clean, Milkfed finally appeared. Then W.R. and Jie was saying, "Wa, Come edi come edi!" Then i looked at where they are looking and saw a Blond, Chinese, skinny, tall woman. I thought is her! I was at there OMG OMG ITS HER?! Because she look super Ah Lian. After i took a second look, i realised it's the one with the Black- 3 quarter sleeve top. Actually didn't really saw her face until we walked to the Coffee Bean booth for a drink that she wanted to treat us. But i didn't get one because i don't really want to drink and i prefer plain water LOL. Anyway, while she was ordering for the rest of the people who want the drink, i was leaning against a shop's window with Qi jie and Yanyu. Talking about stupid stuff which i had forgotten.

Then W.R. joined us and we joked a while, then the joke became so intense that Qi Jie actually chased me around the perimeter of the Coffee Bean booth. Very scary because she suddenly came running and trying to grab my sleeve. Didn't expect her to actually CHASE me. After that Jie started taking photos with her iPhone. Qi Jie, Yanyu and me sneaked away to the Kiddy Palace to avoid getting shot by the Camera. Then Jie and gang walked to our direction and we were like acting as though we were admiring the baby clothes, thinking that she would scold us if we were so happy there not getting shot. But in the end she just pat my shoulder (SUPER SCARY) and say, "Bro, Let's go" Phew, CLOSE SHAVE. Actually i thought the escalator we were going up was the Carpark but in the end it's a terrace that's open air with a Playground by the side.

Qi Jie and I immediately thought that there must have lots of mosquitoes and yet many small children are playing at the area. Very sad for them. We saw 2 cats (or maybe one which can teleport). Seemed the same but don't really know if it was. Then we sat down in a circle like doing some ritual or ice breaking games. Then i saw a handful of girls Smokin' behind me. So rare because i don't really see girls smoking. And they are quite average if u see them by first impression LOL. I only realised when i saw smoke coming out of their mouth =x The ground was quite wet at areas, hence we sat in an imperfect circle. Then chatted a while, did 2 Audition Quiz Question suggested by Jingyi. Continue chatting~ Finally some of us left earlier. First was Jingyi & Keith & Pillow. Second was Andy. 3rd was 0jb0 and W.R.~ After another half an hour we left for home~

ZT went to take bus while we (Jie, Qi jie, Yanyu, Milkfed, Keith and me. Oh ya, Keith came back to the terrace after sending Jingyi off) took the train back home. Chatted on the train and i feel that, that is the only time i really communicated with the people lorh seriously LOL. Feel stressed out when too many people. Then reached home and now typing this super long post. I also don't know why i can type so long. Super specific eh :P Lol~ W.R. u will love this post. Read until you Happy. Yeap, that's all for FAM dinner! 11 April~ Jie will add the pictures later at the FAM blog. Yep, for those readers on my blog, FAM blog is only for FAM members. Psps~ That's all folks bye~ Happy Weekend!

Is it forgivable?

2009-04-09T19:08:00.003+08:00

Today was really good at the start. Being so happy at school because of yesterday night. Not only that factor but also 2 other factors. One of them is that today i will be clearing my blocked ear at the clinic's and so i am very happy that i can hear using 2 ears again. After typing i will go to the doctor's. Just now my internet went hay-wired and the MSN was still online. Hence received quite a lot of sms-es regarding why ignoring them and such.

Finally got the internet to work, then just nice wifey is in Audition. We were chatting on phone and she did a lot of talking which is good but my ears just wouldn't be effective enough. Then i went into audition to find her. Play for a few rounds. Arguements arise due to private reasons. Maybe im a sensitive bug =.= Who knows? And i admit that i am very emotional at times. Alright, today's topic about this post is the question on the title: Is it forgivable?

When you tell a small lie, is it forgivable?
Well, the answer is maybe yes because it's only a small lie.

When you go out with friends on a weekend is it forgivable?
Well, obviously~ I can't restrict you at all. Your legs

When you said that you will try to go out and yet don't really want to, is it forgivable?
This is totally a problem of how strong your stand is.

When you missed an opportunity to say that you can't go, is it forgivable?
It may be forgivable by others but not me.

Why?
Because, when you lose an opportunity, you have to wait for another time.

When you know that you gave false hope, to anyone, is it forgivable?
For me, it isn't because there's this phrase : Losing hope is worse that Lost hope. Which i have felt before.

When you know that you gave false hope and still think that it is ok, is it forgivable?
Absolutely, NO. I won't tolerate this. It's something wrong. Even though the person you gave false hope is someone i dislike, it still isn't right. Not even to say : Friend.

When you still talk to me as though you did no wrong and i accuse you when u did, is it forgivable?
Well, basically no. I shall not use harsh words in my home.

When you say you can't make a decision well, is it forgivable?
The first few times are understandable. But not millions of times afterwards.

When someone says "up to you", meaning they don't really care?
To me, obviously. I only entertain those who care.

When someone tells you to do things you do, and they don't listen to you, is it forgivable?
Not when i'm already in a bad mood.

When someone don't understand something important you are saying, will you explain?
Most likely, no. Because since they don't understand, i don't see a need to explain. Unless special case.

Will you explain to that Someone you are talking about?
For this case, Yes. I meant that one person can't support love. It takes 2 to do it, unlike many things that can be done single-handedly. When someone is vexed, the other must support even more. When i heed your advice, you don't heed mine. That's all.

Thanks for reading people. If you were ever reading =.= Just some vexed question marks in my mind. Going to doctor's now for ear wash. Have a nice day. Not for me obviously. To wifey, SMS me when you made up your mind.

Happy day

2009-04-01T15:47:00.002+08:00

Yo! Guys! This post will be short because nothing really to write. Got a small arguement with Blizz but nevermind that first! Today my friend told me that Ms Kwek praise me in front of other class lol. The exact words she said was :

From 4e3 i think the smartest would have to be Jiayi and Jiayuan. You see all the pupils with 'Jia' name are smart. Next time name your children with the word 'Jia', sure very smart one. LOL Super happy la! =x Anyway i hope i don't fail her ^^ That's all folks!

To the person who send me : Thanks for telling so i felt happier =)

Dead bloggie~

2009-03-31T19:52:00.002+08:00

Lolz sorry everyone for not updating =x Firstly need to play audition, accompany friends, attend remedials, go to school, sleep, eat, breathe :P Sorry and thanks for all of you guys' patience for waiting me to post yeah! You guys are the best~

Anyway, i'll be most likely be busy these few days because of some admin stuff at school as well as the late schedule of school daily~ Although some of you guys would be later and working but it's late for me ok! >:D Hehe, alraedy running out of time too. Maybe I'll be staying back after school for my Art as well. Got this big big canvas waiting for me to paint :S Then yeah, makes my day extend even longer in school. Which is sickening la =x

Yep, and that's all i'm going to post here. Today went high at school. Some people were bewildered but i'm bewildered myself too hahaha. No idea how i became so high. (Not indecent) :P good nights people! Have a nice day too~

Ruth Ling Concert

2009-03-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, today i went to the Esplanade for a last minute kind of a concert performed bu Ruth Ling. There are various artists and a single band. The band was very nice just that the drum volume was super high and many commented on it. Wonders what the AVA Crew was doing. Eek! There was one guitarist and one bassist (someone who play bass i think) and 1 keyboard player. They call her keyboardist. Her clothes are nice~ Yea, a girl. *whistles* from far looks very good :) From near i not sure because she was like walking in and out. But i'm fascinated at the way she switched quickly from different sound tunes of the keyboard. They say that she also plays with turntables. Interesting.

After that the total performance, i feel that the Acapella (unsure of spelling) was quite well done. But my sister and brother-in-law said that there are many parts where they go off tune and it's the 2nd last worst performance in the whole concert. Quite saddened because i felt that that was the best performance lol. Looks like i am really dense on these kind of performances :S But well, the song is nice and overall, there isn't really any songs that i particularly disliked. Hence i feel that it is worth the time to watch it. Although the travelling time totally ruin everything.

Yea.. and there's these 2 points of the concert whereby there's a stupid, fat lady wearing bright orange dress goes up the stage without any permission and then just dances to the music they are playing. At first i thought that she was a hired calefare and she sits in the audience seat and the first row somemore. So i thought she was a calefare. In the end i see that there's clearly no evidence that she is a hired calefare as i deduced.

Then we watched the concert with 2 of my sister's choir students. After the concert, uh-hum. Nevermind :) We shall end here. I am not someone who is evil and defames people :D Yep! So that's all for tonight folks!

2009-03-20T18:32:00.004+08:00

A photo i took at the Food Republic at Vivo city when having dinner~ It's a cage with a bird shaped from light bulbs hanging down from the ceiling~

A photo which i took again, trying to take Qi Jie but still can't see hahaha. Then Jingyi turned here xD

Another photo, tried to take pirates haha still took him. And Jie fu's reaction is very funny xD

This is the picture i took before going back from Sentosa. If you see properly, it's a Luo Han fish. The lucky fish with humbers on it. :P Enjoy~

Fam Meeting 19/3

2009-03-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

Today after going to school, i went home to bathe and asked about where are we going for the FAM meeting. (Gaming stuff) At first, there's no one to bring me there. I'm a direction idiot so when there isn't anyone to bring me, i felt lost and a bit discouraged. But still they wanted me to go, so i just go lorh~ Anyway they meet me at the MRT station so it's ok. Faster bathed and dressed so that i will be on time or maybe earlier.

Went all the way to Chua chu kang interchange then Jurong East interchange then Outram Park interchange then Harbourfront. We go via the monorail train. Waited outside the Coffee Bean for VIP (Pirates). Then he finally came. Last time he got lost at Plaza Singapura so a bit worried for him. Lolol~ But luckily he appeared. Then we settled down for another few minutes to play around the playground there. Then after that we went straight to the Sentosa Station to take the monorail to the island~ Was expecting that the train would be soundless and feel-less. But there's actually the sound of aircon and the vibration. And i thought that the train is floating on top of an air by repulsion but actually it's by wheel~

Then when reach there, we searched our way to the Palawan Beach at the LEFT of the station. Actually wanted to take the tramp but since there's too much people queuing and the beach is like just 600m away, we decided to walk. Sister actually insisted to take the tramp but still we convinced her that walking is a better choice. Once reached there, they were like, all jumping into the water like mad and i realised that : I only wore short pants, but didn't bring a change of clothes! Oh my good! T.T That's very sad loh! Because i cannot swim la! I only got the clothes i wear! T.T It's like missing all the fun loh! But bro-in-law got bring an extra pair of trunks. So he lended to Pirates. He wore long pants loh =.= At least my shorts are easier to dry.

Then in the end decided to go to the toilet and take off shirt and undergarment =3= Wear shorts (like boxer LOL) Then go in the water regardless of anything. Yea, started splashing water. They anyhow splash water on me loh! But i admit i was the 2nd least splashed person while pirates is splashed the least. We decided to swim across from shore to shore. Quite hard and tired as it seems! Extreme! Then i swim halfway my toe cramped =.= Super duper pain in the cold water lah! Then tried to stretch in the deep waters then the water is like cold la! Then when done le quickly swim to the nearest shore because it's really tiring to keep floating. Reached and felt relieved when i can touch the seabed. PHEW! Got an "escaped death" feeling. Then swam back after i felt i feel better and then cramp again =.= What the loh~ But when back to the other shore i stretched and Jingyi saw me =.= Gahhh~ why saw me when i'm like cramping everything in my face together! LOL =x

Then went to the Luge after 2 hours of swimming and i went to the animal show before the Luge. The MC was like saying we should not walk around then i was sitting in the sun and letting my pants dry because i don't have extra pants =3= Then the wooden seat also absorbed some of the water. So.. yea, of course i bathe with water first la! LOL Finally my pants dried and then went to Luge as mentioned. No one wanted to try loh. Then when pirates volunteered to try the Luge, we went off because we are meeting RavenD at Vivo City. She joined us for the dinner. She went the most un-economic food of all in the food court (Food Republic). (Fish and Chips) Pirates also followed her. Haha~ I bought fried rice for $4 Really big bowl but first few bites a bit bland. After that slowly adapted to it.

Then took Lucus' photo when he sleeping because his mouth got saliva drip down =x so funny! Then jie was like cleaning his mouth and closing his mouth with her fingers. A bit yucky then when she pulled close the mouth, Jingyi managed to took a shot of it. Quite nice because didn't expect her to be this fast at taking photos too. Gahh.. handphone camera @_@ My camera SPOIL!! T.T After that also took a few photos at the food court about us eating.. Then went to the resting area and raided one of the benches there. Abit evil but we have a lot of people mah~ Around 8~ Then we stayed there a long long time to take lots of pictures~

Alot. So, i think will not show on some because of censorship. The rest will be showed with "Fam filter" :D Will be uploaded in the next few days if possible. ASAP ba~ Then went to Candy Empire to buy Belgium Caramelised Cookies with RavenD. Then we look look, didn't find. I decided to ask the counter for assistance. Then found it. Looked at it the first time because it's our first time looking at such a strange thing. Then we looked at expiry date, look look~ Then took one off the shelf. We saw "Buy 1 get 1 free" then we took one only. At the counter so embarrassed la! Then go get another packet. Super embarrassed. =x Then we took same MRT train together until Jurong East then i go back to Chua chu kang while her, boon lay. Now MRT extended already so Boon Lay is not the last station anymore. Now is Joo Koon. So Qi Jie felt very troubled by it hahaha.

Then in the MRT, we predicted what the chinese name of the next station to be. Then we checked answers. There's one time whereby the train stop at the signboard with the Tamil language then i said : Ji Dan! means egg. Then Qi Jie was like laughing her head off LOL! Hahaha! Then when we parting ways, i challenged her to see who reached home first. In the end i reached 6 minutes after Qi Jie! Gahhhh!! Lool~ Actually kind of predicted that she will reach first. I need to change 2 times train loh! =x That's all for today~ See ya people! Thanks for reading~

2nd meeting with DEAR!

2009-03-18T22:25:00.002+08:00

Today is the second meeting with dear! Wahhh~ super nice de loh i tell you! Here's what i experienced. Today went to Bishan Library right after my lessons and alighting at MRT. Asked for directions because i'm not sure where is it exactly. I followed what the person told me but all i saw was a circular building and thought it's the library. But after that, i saw a block number to that building. Which means it's a flat. Then i continue looking around that area and saw i need to turn RIGHT to see the library. I actually saw the library AFTER crossing the road Hahaha!

I entered the library and called dear. She say meet at basement. At first she said her parents are coming so i approached with caution. Wanted to take the lift but dear say got stairs, so might as well :D Then saw that the staircase which leads to the basement is children zone. Felt a bit weird when going down but thought that dear so cute must have gone down anyway :P Walked around to find her. In the end found her at the corner of the basement. Quite lucky too as there are little teenagers around. Mostly kids and parents.

That means there's lesser noise. Which is good for doing homework. She was with a friend i didn't see before. Then helped her with some chemistry worksheets and workbook. Both of them seem to be amazed by my solving speed haha. They were like looking at stars. Stunned totally =x However, there's some parts which i do not understand as well. Hence i skipped. Quite unbelievable that i wouldn't know. Maybe because she's in pure chemistry =3= After round an hour of rushing homework non-stop, we finally cannot tolerate and went to junction 8 to eat and walk.

We thought of places to eat but in the end Zann gave the idea of going to Pizza hut to grab lunch. Not bad la~ I ordered something i wouldn't regret haha, lucky~ I ordered a baked pasta with cheesy shroom. It's a set so it comes with mushroom soup and a glass of coke. The cheese keep getting pulled and becomes messy on the plate. However, nice to eat. Can play with the strips like eating noodle :D Dear drink soup super fast loh! Oh my, before the baked pasta she ordered comes, her soup is like empty! Hehe =x and she told me to take away this part but it's a spectacular experience uh~ First person who won me at consuming something x.x

Due to the shock that she drank finished the soup already, i quickly eat the baked pasta to win her :P Quite fun though because it's piping hot so it's quite fun to juggle the food in your mouth xD Then after eating we waited for Zann's friend. But in the end we bought the bill and then went out to find her friend. Saw her friend standing back face us when going up the escalator. Zann was like super anxious because it's her first time meeting her Habbo friend for 6 years according to dear =x

Then we walked around and went to the library again. But it's not bad la~ We chatted a bit and did a bit of oral reading with children's books. Then after that dear and i went to lean against the wall and each other :D Waaa super comfortable and static :P Then we ask Zann and her male friend to turn away :P Not to let them see us xD Then they really lame, anyhow take handphone try to get reception from the basement. Seem to be having a lot of fun. But dear is more fun to be with hahaaha!

Oooooh~ Felt dear's hand for the first time. And the first girl (except siblings) i felt! So warm loh! Maybe because my hands are cold =3= Showed her my handphone stuff~ Then chatted and gave her the valentine's present i bought for her but didn't manage to give her on the day itself. Haha, she kind of fiddled at it and then kept it. She gave me a dog-tag and a small bullet by the side hanging. Simple yet nice :D Oh ya, she also leaned on my shoulder when sitting in front of me. Oh! That's just like flying up to heaven! Man! I wish time would stay at that moment!

Anyway, reached home in 1 hour and started bathe, chores, etc etc. Then online with dear tag hearts. Gahhh~ So long still haven't even level! And i even forget to do license when got to go ~.~ Nevermind~ I'll do it some other time. Tomorrow maybe can't because i need to go for FAM outing at sentosa and AVA duty at school. If it's speech day duty i will be freed because i'm one of the participants. If not, i just say i got personal stuff need got to go early. Don't care already la x.X Friday need tag hearts with dear again~ I think i will go to take photos for Art first. This holiday will not seem to be one x.x That's all folks.

I MISS YOU DEAR :O <3333 I want to hold your hand and never let go~

1st day of holiday

2009-03-16T19:01:00.005+08:00

Today is the first day of March holidays. Woke up 7am. Went to school as soon as i finish my things. Wasn't late. Today is quite okay. Mrs Heng finally made her English lessons more fun. We went to the computer lab today to do oral recording and send to her email. Quite fun because of my voice. I talk like rapping, and full of expression. It caught everything i want to express. It was really nice. Then the programme only can record for 1 minute. Teacher tell me to find another programme which can record more than 1 minute because i'm in AVA. I told her i don't know :P

After around 20 minutes of recording, my friend found Windows Movie Maker being able to record sound as long as you want. Super annoyed and embarrassed haha. Teacher still say so loud to the class : Shame on you Jiayi! Lol. Then everyone was like laughing =.= Ugh, fine~ I don't even know much about recording on the computer because i don't have a mike at home x.x Yea, i think i will get a headphone with a mike soon because i really wanted one. And then teacher let us go early so we can have more break. Not bad, 45 minutes of break. Went out of school to buy food. Canteen never sell.

Walked to Fajar Shopping Centre with Wildie (Badminton Captain) and he went to McDonalds' for his sausage muffin while i went to the food court to get Wanton mee. Haha.. early in the morning around 10am i go eat wanton mee. Then Wildie joined me at the food court because McDonalds' don't allow outside food. Feel a bit owing him because he buy McDonalds' but yet sit with me in the food court suffer the heat although it wasn't really hot but warmer than Mac's place. Haiiz.. sorry la Wildie, really apologetic. Just don't wanna show.

After eating i walked back to school with him as well, chatted a few stuff about food. Not bad haha, at least he is someone who is willing to hear me talk. I'm grateful. Very very grateful. Oh yea, and to Pirates who have been always reading my blog, you are just like him :D Like an older brother who is willing to lend a listening ear. Everytime i have any problems. Just that you sound more concerned than him =.= And there's really nothing bad about you from my point :D

After going back to school, we had mother tongue lesson. Gone through this passage talking about umbrellas, how they are useful, blocking the rain, sun and wind for you, just like family and friends. I agree utmostly without even hesitating. The story is meaningful yet quite childish. Talked a few jokes and made teacher laugh. Very very glad because she don't laugh often. Yep, then sit with Pek Meng all the way. During the last lesson, she promised to bring us our test paper but she didn't today. So we sounded like we so hated her for that then she say, she promise to bring the papers tomorrow. Super funny, she say if she never bring, forever no need to attend her class LOL. Hahaha how i wish, FAT HOPE JIAYI~

Oh ya, the passage leading the staircase which i take to the mother tongue room has been sealed and i have to make 1 big round around the building to go back to classroom. Many of us were pissed off by that. But i don't really care. After the Wanton mee at Fajar, i went high in mother tongue lesson. But the energy was totally drained for POA after mother tongue. I looked like a dead person. Then all my friends like ask me why x.x Why else luh~ See below post loh! Of course, today went back home and have a good time with dear because it seemed that she gotten over it. Finally. But it still feels distanced because she don't want to give anything from her point of view. Everything like i lead.

Then pirates came online :D Happy happy! Because i think he saw my blog post. In the end he haven't and i let off the news that, you know, we won 2 win 2 lose for FAM battle. Guess what, we got more points from them and it's a thing worth celebrating. Although we nearly win all four though. One of them is that i didn't do most of the finish moves. Then another one is RavenD Missed the last Crazy finish move. Haha. But nevermind that, we won back anyway. Then pirates joined me with dear at the room. Then dear was like spouting nonsense. At first i thought she was talking to someone in the room but later i found out she was talking to --HopeWin. I hate HopeWin to the core =.= Know why? First, he is better than me (sorry uh, i like to win) 2nd, he talk more than me! Basically that's about it.

That's about it today~ I won't ever feel dead for her anymore. Not anymore. I hope dear sees this. But if she don't, don't tell her about it for loyal readers! Thanks alot! Love you guys~

Love gone wrong

2009-03-15T22:12:00.007+08:00

Haiiz, finally back to this secluded ulu place. Yeah, sorry for the long update. Was happily in love. Too happy perhaps.. that caused me to do this today when i was eating macaroni at home.. Almost madly in love you can say. And the reason why i post today and now at 10.15pm, is because this is the only place i found out that my dear will not look at. Since it is almost secluded, i think she also won't come. Yeah.. This is what happened today..

I was so happy that she finally broke camp after 2 harsh empty days for me. She is able to come online because it's the holiday or because her parents are out. It is really a great joy for me. Well, we were chatting happily, playing with my web cam. It was really fun. But due to a small accident, my clothes got soiled and had to bathe. Then my sister took over the computer. Haiiz, looking at her playing couple mode.. with her FAM member. Of course a bit jealous, because well, maybe i'm just over-sensitive.

After that i took the computer and went to see her using my account. She said "Wait" when i whispered her where she is. Tell me honestly, how many of you will think madly when you just saw her playing couple dance with her FAM member. Haha, maybe i'm possessive already. Also, to add on the worriness, i do not have premium messenger plus. Which is able to track down people on which channel they are at. Hence i went to channel by channel to find her.

In the end i found her at channel 14. Long search though. It was pathetic for me. To search for my GF so desperately because of just a word : "Wait". Then the quarrels happened. One wave after another. I decided to launch a cold war. Couldn't tolerate the silence anymore and so i spoke first. Finally got it solved. And now.. all her sms-es to me are like.. "I don't think you want to talk on the phone. If you want just say so".

There's this phrase i saw in a book: Silent Run. "Give people what they want, and they will want you" and from the factor that she say she won't sleep until it is sorted, i accepted what she wanted me to. (Not gonna say it). But explaination just doesn't get into her. Maybe it's just my lousy explaining skills. No one seemed to understood them. At first she understood. But now, it's all the same. I pacified her, did everything i could to salvage the situation. But i can't. She no longer sms the way she did just a few hours ago.

I guess that's it. I think that's it. I can't think of a way anymore. My mind went blank. I have to sleep. Yet i feel empty without her voice. And then i realised.. her phone calls are becoming a want instead of a need anymore. Now, we control whether we want to call or not. Last time was.. no matter what also must call. And we even decided on where we want to meet, what we want to do, when we want to go... Haiiz. I hope the horoscope match is wrong. Please.. save me someone... This is also the first time i can differenciate the difference between not suited to be together and don't love.

Don't love basically means no love feelings or special feelings toward someone.
Not suited means that there is attitude difference, preferrance clash, untimely incidents, etc. But it doesn't mean that one don't like another. One can like the other yet not suited to each other. I guess that's the best expression that maybe a dictionary can't show. I would like to dedicate this song: Whisung - I am missing for dear. It will be on my blog for around 2 weeks. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. Our home is collapsing...

Some photos in school

2009-03-14T08:12:00.004+08:00

Long awaited

2009-03-06T20:06:00.001+08:00

Sorry guys for not being able to post these past few days because of regular tests at school and required revision AND of course, to be honest here, i haven't been quite free >< Coming home from school 4pm everyday, i need to mop the floor and iron clothes whenever i'm back at home. Then i have to bathe, eat, do homework, revise for tests. Yea.. and tomorrow there's a test on Maths. Trigometry, Bearings, Probability, etc etc. Gah.. i think i will die but i hope i won't fail.

Next week will have more tests coming up. Haiiz.. it doesn't end. Secondary 4 life is an exact depiction of hell mentally. And yes, Art O Level paper also keeps me busy as i need to draw and draw and draw =.= Including doing research and all those stupid stuff. And have to pay for O Levels. So Expensive loh! My total is S$370 for the whole exams.

Yea.. and i have any free time i will play a little audition and a little MapleStory. Friend wanted me to play.. haha.. Yea, so i think if you want me audition have to book =x Lol. Hopefully my march holidays will be quite free which i don't think i will. I guess thats all folks. Hope this satisfies you pirates :D

Some photos and media

2009-03-01T08:24:00.005+08:00

Yea.. sorry guys for yesterday, didn't post any blog ah =x psps. So, now i'm posting the photos and pictures i took at Singapore Arts Museum. Although shouldn't take. I mean, not suppose to
take :P Don't act pro and go take picture openly there k! Alright, enjoy them. Yesterday dear online very excited. Married in Audition :D Hahaha!

Okay the picture below is from school one. Inside classroom. Classmate took from below the table. Lol. Tired ah, i don't look like this everyday by the way LOL.Well, i saved the wedding, so i think i will post the video here soon enough. Through youtube. I hope it works :P Never tried posting a video on blog. Anything need help please help ah =x All the photos are taken by Wildie Teo (Badminton Captain). Lol. Also known as Mr. Bloody hell~ He take when i'm not aware loh! Stupid stupid stupid :P That's all. Look forward to the wedding video!